ANEOS.

It's raining now! haha I love it when it is a rainy day hopefully it can rain the whole day. Can make me feel so comfortable at home , snoozing on my bed and sniffing into my smelly pillow!~ Today is such a perfect day for studying too!! I must do some hws plus the hardcore mugging for my chemistry test on the topic : "metals" this coming wednesday. I am very blur about this topic on whole because I hasn't been listening much in class. So I am gng to make full use of my time today ! YAY I love you rain you come on the right time right day right mood. ^^ ANEOS !

GLAD!

I'm back from my irksome amaths homework ! 11.1 & 11.2 & 11.3 (DONE) YYYYAAYYY! haha I'm going to clear my emaths later , 2 amaths pract papers , 2 ques on poa & chem wb. I hope I can at least finish 1 or 2 by today! JY SY ! haha anyway I feel very happy now I also dont know why. I think God has helped me ! I want to clear my tears and sorrows away ): I don't want to find myself controlling tears everytime I stumbled upon something like 'this'. I want to be happy 24/7 everyday.

Had been feeling quite down these few days (24hours per day - 7hours aslp , 12 hours feeling down , 2 hours feeling happy? 3 hours feeling normal. ) Though I tried to put up a strong front most of the time infront of everyone, deep down I am feeling very down. I felt that I want certain thing in life, though I know what is it, but I hesitated to go and have them. I wavered & stutter for every steps I will take , like whats the consequences & stuffs?.. sometimes I just ponder , why dont other think as much as I do? they seems much happier, doing what they like and what they want in life. is it because I know too much and think srsly too much? thats why I'm stuck in btw , w/o gng any forward like how everyone is doing.
please dont ask me what happened because I don't like it. I will only share my sorrows when I think you're the one that can really uds me. however till now there isn't anyone yet. ):

I'm trying my best to be a happy girl. ((((((((((((((((((: